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Colden has taken to screaming on a near constant basis. Nearly everything sets him off. He's become rather unpleasant. He likes to nurse very often. He is very patient. He will nurse and nurse. He refuses to come off. He could wait all day for the milk to flow, quenching his thirst and satisfying his hunger. When I finally pull him off and the milk hasn't come, he throws a tantrum. We go round and round like this all day.
I use camomile homeopathic beads (edible) to help calm him. I take him to the park, I diffuse calming essential oils, and baby-wear. Nothing works. Whenever I hold him, he either pulls up my shirt or puts his hands down my shirt, begging to nurse. No matter where we are, he wants to nurse. He won't play with the kids at his kindergarten (he's there for a couple hours a day during the week). He walks around with his blanket, glum and looking like Linus.
He wakes upwards of three times a night. I give him water before we nurse. When I go to put him back to bed, unlike the days of past when he would gladly curl up with his blankets and go back sleep with a smile on his face, he throws a fit. It takes a few minutes (2-5) but he does stop his fit and goes to sleep. Still, I don't want him crying for one second and the attachment parenter in me feels like I should be running back to hold him and nurse him. However, I physically can't. I'm tired, my breasts are sore, I'm still not feeling well, my allergies are killing me, I have two other children to get up with early in the morning. I can't nurse him all day and all night long. I can't hold him all day long. Right now, he's so needy, I can't even use the bathroom without him sobbing with his hands wrapped around my legs. This boy is completely distraught and clearly on to the fact that he's not going to be the baby in the house much longer. For five-weeks straight, he has made it very clear that he is not happy about this.
On the weekends, I've been trying to have Matt spend more time with him. He does have fun with daddy - as long as I'm not around.
I keep telling myself it's going to get better. He'll adjust. Am I scared? Yes. Very much so. If he's still like this when Matt deploys, I'm going to be in a lot of trouble!
This too shall pass, this too shall pass....
Ah, how can I relate! I wonder how women do tandem breastfeeding and breastfeed thought pregnancy? It just does not seem to work for me. Just like you said, my milk is gone. And Lena will nurse for hours if I do not pull her off, waiting for the milk to come. It is really unsettling, for both of us.
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